Rewind it Pt 2

How to Get Your Ex Back proved to be worth the 30$. I followed that thing 100% of the way, even the scripts it had out for me to send to people via text. The first step to this book was to NOT text my Ex for 21 days. So, that's what I did. It said to keep him on Facebook (since he'll be checking up on me-EVEN though during his break speech, my Ex said that he wouldn't be on Facebook at all. ... Ha!)
As I devoured every word of this book, at a sleep over with Rian (after been a week since meeting him), I even followed the step to delete my Ex from my phone. Which was the hardest step to do! Week one's step were pretty simple, post pictures of me having fun (Work Christmas party that weekend after, which Rian was at, which we took pictures together since he doesn't come across Gay until you meet him.) Never once did I check my Ex's Facebook either, I just couldn't and I'm glad I didn't because it proved to me that I was a strong person. I also was supposed to come up with a list of thing I hated about him, but of course I couldn't because I "loved" him. Shot me now, looking back on this shit. Anyways...

The first portion of this book had a lot of great advise too. He didn't break up with me because I got fat, or i was ugly or anything superficial, but that I lost my value to him. And this book was going to help me gain it back! Which it the long run, boosted my self esteem and made me happier with the outcome. It basically said, go out there and get a hobby, workout, learn something new. I took up photography and took a graphic animation online course to spend my time. Instead of moping around the house and crying into my mothers lap.

For the next week I was too go out on dates! But I couldnt. I was too heart broken to even give a guy a chance, but since the book called for it, I decided to ask out a guy on a coffee date...ish...kinda...thing. He was super nice and was down for it. And the book told me to post it on Facebook, but not be too obvious about it. So i simply put, "Out for Coffee :) ". Harmless enough. Not naming anyone, not making it seem like a big deal. The date went really well, but there was no way my heart was going to let anyone in at this point. No, I wasn't necessarily using him to get back at my Ex, he was actually someone I wanted to get to know because of our common interests with animation. But of course being with my Ex didnt allow me to go out with this guy and get to know him better!

(For a side note, second week in and I was still struggling with sleeping, smiling and coming to terms with the break up. Luckily I had my friends reaching out to me. Some just texting me to make sure I smiled that day! Others, proved that they didn't deserve my friendship and instead started causing drama and rumors about me. Even after they realized they had been wrong with their assumptions. Once a cunt always a cunt. No need for drama causing bitches in my life!)

So two weeks in, and I was still crying in my car on my way to work (Thank God for water proof mascara) I was still crying at every lovey dovey song to come on. Pink's song "Try" came out at that time. Hit me hard, that's for sure. Crying is the best therapy though. The book's next step was to message someone who was in frequent contact with my Ex, and send them something talking about the date and going out with this guy. So I did just that. I texted his friends girlfriend and literally went word for word with the books script. Worked like a charm. She ate up every word.

Week three was dreadful, and on Christmas was the 21st day. I messaged him a short, Merry Christmas, and he did reply, short chit chat, but the book said NOT to lead the conversation. So i didn't and it ended after 5 messages. Didn't message him after that. And New years eve came along and I had been saving this awesome, sexy dress for it! Me and my friends, including Rian and Derek, took loads of pictures, of my sexy dress (which got a TON of likes on Facebook, so THAT would have made the news feed!). After that, about three days after, I finally checked his Facebook. It was like giving myself a heart attack on purpose.

The worst happened.... he fucking deleted me.